When Reality Strikes

"Maybe I'm crazy."

I've thought this about myself a lot over the last two weeks. I took on a lot of change, and I dealt with it much better than I would have a year ago. No yelling. No tearing my hair out. No channeling my inner hulk and smashing anything. (Actually, only one of those happened last time I moved. Your guess is the only answer you'll get.)

Anyway. July 27th was my last day at LifeWay as a full-time employee. They have graciously given me a few contract projects, and I'm really finding my rhythm as a contract worker. God created me to be more of a free-spirit than I ever considered myself, and I love being able to work when I want. You know what? I'm still on time, and I'm way more productive than I was two weeks ago.

But during the week that followed my departure, my life looked a whole lot like this: 

And this...

Finally though, I'm halfway done. I'm settled into my parents' house for the next few weeks while I unpack and repack and prepare to move to the Great Smokies.

Oh, and by settled in, I actually mean my boxes are officially taking over their house. (Sorry Mom and Dad.)

On the surface, my life is a hot mess. I don't know where most of my things are. I'm balancing contract work and figuring out how to change over my insurance (which is a royal pain, by the way), completing all of the forms and training for my new job, and usually prioritizing none of that in favor of spending time with the people I will dearly miss when I move. 

I still don't know my new address. I don't know what all I'll need to take with me. I don't know my move date. I'm a recovering control freak, y'all. A year ago, I would not be okay with this. I would want to know every single detail.

But God has taught me a lot over the last year. Even more important than what He has taught me about myself is what He taught me about Himself. I can trust Him. I know that I have a job and a place to live, both during the season and in the off-season. I know I start my job on September 9th. I know that I will be in one of my favorite places in the world. 

God has given me many details, but not all of them. And as for the rest? Well, I know I can trust Him. And that's good enough for now.